A Scam

I suppose there are reasons.
Excuses, maybe to
buy more time to
fix all that’s gone wrong.
To be fair
what’s wrong now were all merely
hopes and
pipe dreams from
a while ago.
That distance that seems so short is
probably,
most likely,
miles from where you started.

It’s not about finding reasons for the future
because
you could just
get hit by a bus
tomorrow
and it would all
be for nothing.

I think it’s more about finding reasons for now
even if they’re tiny,
even if the only reason is to stick around
to spite the feeling of
leaving.
Gather your nerve as small and quiet
as it may be.
Retreat if you must
and conceal if you need.
It’s not healthy, no
but it’s healthier
than jumping off
a bridge.

Sometimes it’s better to take it
from the left
to the right
left, right, left and so on
without considering the place
where we stop.
Put your head down
and refuse to look up
if you must, ignore
each shoe that passes by
if you need to.
It’s a bit rude, yes but it’s kinder
than jumping off
a bridge.

Maybe it’s about value
and not for the
sake of finding a value but for
what you value most now,
maybe?
Existence is a scam and
they all profit from
the con, clutch your
pennies if you need to.
It’s expensive, but
expensive is expansive and
given that economy,
I suppose it’s cheaper
than jumping off
a bridge.